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KEAGAN SAYS.
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28 February 2006
argh. was gonna meet gen over at bukit gombak for our midnite bowl at team singapore NS and i miss the freakin last train AND bus! got stuck over at kallang den stuck again at toa payoh. and after MUCH contemplation, yes i took a freakin cab. in da cab.... uncle: "ni yao qu na li" me: "bukit gombak" uncle: "bukit gombak na li?" me: "huh? wo yao qu swiss cottage secondary school" and the uncle turned back with a stun look on his face. HILARIOUS. he thinks im crazy la gg back to school at such late hours LAUGHS. i was totally maluated k! and it took me 14bucks to get there.. omg. expensive. anyway.. amazingly, we din play much. done with juz three games. i was batman n gen was ni gu can anybody plz tell me, why must the day end off with the radio playin tt freakin song?? so wad if u will?!
27 February 2006
this is stoooppiddd. interviewed for some waitress position and i got sent to work at some unknown restaurant!  and its uniform juz sucks big time!!  look so petrol station rite?! seriously got a shock of my life when they ask me to put THAT on. no way im wearing that plz! and the worst thing was... yes, i interviewed for a WAITRESS position and i ended up being a DOOR HOSTESS! What The Fuck?! though its easy money.. the only thing i had to do is to walk left to right den right to left at the entrance and say: "hi welcome!" but i rather get a lower pay, be a freakin waitress hidden in the stupid restuarant serving customers den to be seen out there in sucha disgusting uniform! goodness gracious. try keepin a smile on ur face for 4 whole hrs! gosh. wad a job. how experiencing, how productive, how fake. ohh! gen called.. gtg.. more updates after my midnite bowl.
26 February 2006
ok.. went for job interview at colours by the bay. omg tt guy juz hire me on the spot la! and i gotta like start work tmr. sighhh. oh and i THINK i saw jp's ex there for interview too hmmm.. ok nvm, maybe not. oh wells.. i was damn bored. again i din wana go home, so i called out my budds! demanded them to stop wdeva they are doing and accompany me for dinner. yz was home gaming, darren was STUDYING, (ok i felt bad) del was with his gf. still.. they came down to slack with me! THANK YOU.  my ever dearest grandfather cum bf-like budd from tt silly old mountain.  my new found sisterly "big" brother =P  and my crappy ex. =) also from tt silly old mountain. they were consistently laughin at my chinese the whole nite can! shessh wadz wrong?! i still like my "wei he". though del came out with a better "wei she ME" HILARIOUS. anyways.. thanks for the cheering up n all with ur morbid stories and plz-turn-straight arguements. i know i know. i will TRY. and hey...! u all shd feel lucky! its the first time guy photos are being upload on my blog k!! u people are the only buncha guys im close with and yet im not turn off by ur MENdoings. LAUGHS. omg tt sound so wrong! orites.. u guys are sucha blessing.
25 February 2006
missing u
22 February 2006
bored stiff. came across these quizzies from blog surfing..  see.. im TOTALLY COOL! and  im SMART!! laughs. i feel so damn freakin ego suddenly.. and i think the stupid test is way cool! it really makes u think. alot of careful readin and comprehension needed. im cool plz. =)
21 February 2006
a series of unfortunate events. fuck fate, fuck coincidence. im not buyin all this! not when im in this "lok cok" state.... not when im in my specs?! gosh..  the world is juz so freakin small. omg. and today's the worst day of my life! totally jinxed. i was 30 minutes late for micro paper, plus i din bring my passport for identity, so i nearly cldnt take my paper. and only to found out that i din shade my Optical Answer Sheet when the invigilator goes " pens down"! What The Fuck?! so what's next?! wad can be worst den all that...? its when the invigilator freakin missed collecting ur exam script! omg! how blind and forgetful can he get?! i raised my hand for more den 5minutes and not one of the invigilators notice me!! am i too short or wad?! argh. and we cant leave our seats, so how am i suppose to hand up my script!?! ahhhhhhhh.........!!!!!! FUCK. in the end i handed in my paper late and they din accept it. fuck it all. so much for attending the only paper for my sem exam.
19 February 2006
my usuals with miracle matchmaker. omg.. i swear my miracle matchmaker is damn cute! HILARIOUS. ~ kaiqi emotional crippled says: tan ee min ~ kaiqi emotional crippled says: i dink u shd go turn straight lesbian world is too extreme for u [minee_] goodbye , my lover says: ahahah im nv gona be as extreme [minee_] goodbye , my lover says: tt night must have been freaky.. i thought u were damn brave ~ kaiqi emotional crippled says: no... since when?! rmbr when i stayed over tt nite? i din even dare to slp [minee_] goodbye , my lover says: ahahahha eh.. i wasnt gona do anything to u ok [minee_] goodbye , my lover says: im reali not tt kinda girl.. [minee_] goodbye , my lover says: im more scared than u are man ~ kaiqi emotional crippled says: when u said i still owe u a kiss, it scared the hell outa me [minee_] goodbye , my lover says: ahahaha. i was kiddin i will be scared if u really did [minee_] goodbye , my lover says: N I THINK SHE'S DAMN SCARY [minee_] goodbye , my lover says: SHIT SHIT.. I DUN WANA HEAR [minee_] goodbye , my lover says: things are simple i like u and u like me it doesnt hafta go up to tt extent i like things simple, keep it simple [minee_] goodbye , my lover says: u la!! go wad poly! go there and scare ur self only [minee_] goodbye , my lover says: i will be scared la ~ kaiqi emotional crippled says: omg funny ~ kaiqi emotional crippled says: quick u muz take me back ~ kaiqi emotional crippled says: away from all this pollution [minee_] goodbye , my lover says: haha.. after u have met those ppl, im too boring for u alrdy.. [minee_] goodbye , my lover says: eh n i am bi [minee_] goodbye , my lover says: effectively bi ok [minee_] goodbye , my lover says: seraphina came to ask me tt day [minee_] goodbye , my lover says: whats ur sexuality ~ kaiqi emotional crippled says: HAHAHA isnt tt obvious? a BI! even though u act like a damn butch [minee_] goodbye , my lover says: hahaha u stop [minee_] goodbye , my lover says: okay u go back straight la u ~ kaiqi emotional crippled says: NO! i like u! i like u!! ~ kaiqi emotional crippled says: pure n innocent.. haha [minee_] goodbye , my lover says: ok ure having ur usual my-heart-is-broken-nonsense again [minee_] goodbye , my lover says: so i shall not pay attn to all ur gibberish [minee_] goodbye , my lover says: im not paying attn... lalala ~ kaiqi emotional crippled says: finee.. im gonna blog abt u [minee_] goodbye , my lover says: NONONO ~ kaiqi emotional crippled says: thot some1 not payin attn?? ~ kaiqi emotional crippled says: ok dun blog.. put in my frenster [minee_] goodbye , my lover says: OMG DUN PLAY ALRDY ~ kaiqi in love with my miracle matchmaker =) says: take ur pick frenster or blog?? or both?! hahaha [minee_] goodbye , my lover says: blog blog haha she's damn cute la.. she dinks tt im threatenin her.. LAUGHS [minee_] goodbye , my lover says: duh im scared of u.. whole day talk nonsense type nonsense [minee_] goodbye , my lover says: later all ur lovers come and kill me she's cool she's cute and i love her!!! she nv fails to make me laugh. =) THANK YOU! and i really do miss you! aint dumb. i knew it all along. (im resourceful.. rmbr?) it was obviously obvious. i juz chose not to see, to hear or believe. no need for sorry. not ur fault but my mistake. i made the choice to live in a lie. if feelings can be control i would have stop the liking ever since u had the blonde. if feelings can be stop. believe me, i would. this time, things were better. i guess. i asked to be spared. u still responded, as thspecialone.
as usual.. im happy for you, i am. =) It isn't a crime to want a little space to breathe You will be fine, the sun again will shine On you, whatever you do. I will never stand in your way Wherever your heart may lead you I will love you the same And I will be your comfort every day Do you hear the words I say? Take your sweet, sweet time I will be here when you change your mind Take your sweet, sweet time I will be here for you baby Anytime..
18 February 2006
i was thinking of you and i fell asleep.. den i missed my stop. how dumb. anyway.. yes!! i wana complain! juz let me whine for once! why is everyone depriving me of my sleep?? day beforte ytd i only had 3hrs cuz lex called from brunei. and ytd/today... i only had 4hrs. went down to JACE dearie's to accompany her for prata den lex called n we talked n talked till 8 in the morning. den gen called at 12 and made me accompany her to J8. sighh.. im damn fuckin tired and i haven started studyin for econs. argh. hmm.. but it wasnt tt bad after all gen n i had Haagen-Dazs fondue!! yummilicious!  our long awaited fondue  lickin good..  muacks!  haha n we wiped it up in less den 20min!  woohoo! afterwhich we headed back home and had rounds n rounds of DDR! yup yup ttz the way!  my ultimate calorie cum stress minus-ing machine  dance my ass out
17 February 2006
fuck. juz found out tt im not debarred for microecons.. i need to start studying! i need, i need, i need................ You're the only one. I know it's gonna take some time For you to trust this love of mine I know he broke your heart in two You've been betrayed and you're afraid That I will do the same to you But you will be safe here in my arms forever and a day Though you don't believe me now I'll never walk away And you, you know I'll be there when tomorrow comes. You're the only one I know you've heard this all before (You're the only one) You're the one that I adore (You're the only one) You make me shine just like the sun (You're the only one) You bring this heart of mine undone (You're the only one) Every lie you've ever heard You can believe my every word Whatever heaven holds in store Through good and bad I'll be your man Stand beside you through it all You'll be safe here in my arms Forever and a day Though you don't believe me now I'll never walk away And you, you know that I'll be there when tomorrow comes. i will not make promises that everyone else has made n broken; i will make promises within my means that no one has yet to make. hmm.. jacq's entry really brought back memories.. it's been so long.. all these were put to the back of my mind.. under-age clubbin, gettin chased outa house for uncountable times, being called juvenile delinquent, gettin hit by bamboo, not cane. dodging of chairs flyin across the room, havin police comin to my house in the middle of the night, slapped my mom, got locked in cupboard for 24hrs, pon-ing lessons, coming home only at weeeee hours, got caught for bringing guys to SC after sch was closed. etc, etc, etc. den they gave up on me. din even care when i retained, din even bother when i dun come home anymore. thinkin back.. how silly. haha n when i went back to SC last friday.. i was shocked when Ms Koh, my vice principle who hardly comes out of her office, recognizes me. i wasnt taught by her neither did i get into any trouble with her. how come she knows my name? was i that notorious? gosh...... wd a bad reputation. oh n i was askin mom, y she wanted to send me to the girls home and she said i was way beyond hope. ttz y they gave up. den i was tellin her.. u shd count urself lucky, u have such a sensible daughter. i became better not worst. i still talk to you even after slapping you, n i dun i drink or smoke. (ok i lied) den she smiled, "nah.. we TRUST u. anyway its ur life not mine." freak. i hate it when they use tt on me. i cant stand it when my parents dun care. i need to be love n dote on. am still their precious lil girl =)
16 February 2006
is that ME you are directing at?? or someone else? ...... confidence. that's wad u need girl. yes i need that right now. nv so unsure of myself.. my confessions. white specs and a white chin stud, together with a army green lanyard. clueless of her name, i call her the girl along the corridor. as the sem passes, my heart grew fonder. my oh my, for the girl along the corridor. black specs and a silver lip ring, together with a army green jacket. still in search of her identity, i call her the girl along the corridor. as the sem's ending i've found the story of ibonne. my oh my and she's the girl along the corridor. the girl who whisks my words away, back inside. everytime when im alone thats when my mind starts to roam there a feeling i hide all along but i can no longer keep it unknown. yes.. and now i confess, u r the girl along the corridor. i love you, i have loved u all along. so what do you say? if i believe, will my dream come true? i had a dream, was it a dream? its juz a dream. (im sure, im sure, im sure......) shessh.. i shd stop brainwashing myself. hoping for the better but not askin for more. ok. nvm. contradicting. am scared of losing wdeva i have right now. ttz y a holdin back of that move. argh. fuck it. courage see me through, heart im trusting you.
15 February 2006
gosh! my neck hurts like shit. it feels so detachable rite now.. thanks to yongzhuang and del i only had 3hours of sleep today! they are crazy.. kept forcing me to study with them over at del's place. plsss spare this poor lil girl here, she needs her rest. haha den lex texted. she was badly in need of entertainment. laughs. being nice.. i went online to entertain her. and she thinks tt im interested in her!? i swear she's freakin ego la! im not gonna be nice anymore. NO MORE. roll eyes! oh oh!! and she's such a sadistic pervert! boy along the roadside says: im not gonna sell u away boy along the roadside says: who says i am ~kaiqi girl along the corridor says: i know u will ~kaiqi girl along the corridor says: u're such an ass. boy along the roadside says: nopee!! im gonna rape and kill u and cook u into meatballs. she wana eat me up la! how evil!? bleahs.  and ttz her.. MR egoistic. laughs. i wan my bolster! i wan my bed.. stupid jacq "pian wo qu ta jia" and there goes my beauty sleep again =(
14 February 2006
For you i will. Wondering the streets, in a world underneath it all Nothing seems to be, nothing tastes as sweet As what I can't have Like you and the way that you're twisting your hair round your finger Tonight I'm not afraid to tell you What I feel about you. I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have and cannon ball into the water I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have For you I will For you I will Forgive me if stutter From all of the clutter in my head Cause I could fall asleep in those eyes Like a water bed Do I seem familiar, I've crossed you in hallways a thousand times, no more camouflage I want to be exposed, and not be afraid to fall. I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have And cannon ball into the water I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have For you I will You always want what you can't have But I've got to try I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have For you I will For you I will For you I will For you If I could dim the lights in the mall And create a mood I would Shout out your name so it echoes in every room That's what I'd do, That's what I'd do to get through to you I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have And cannon ball into the water I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have For you I will You always want what you can't have But I've got to try I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have For you I will For you I will For you I will For you I will nothing great nothing unusual. its juz another quiet vday. for 18 years it has always been this way.. nothing changed. so wd izit tt im upset abt?! shessh.. horoscope for vday. Even if you don't feel like you can do much, just show up. Sometimes you need to take the action before you get the insight. The payoff might not be exactly what you expected, but you will see positive results. fine.. i will go.
13 February 2006
the redundant rose. Roses on V-day, selling. PM me if you want some. i love W-INDSurfing says: hey u need roses? kaiqi* courage see me through, heart im trusting you. says: hey! haha.. kaiqi* courage see me through, heart im trusting you. says: wd for? u selling?? Roses on V-day, selling. PM me if you want some. i love W-INDSurfing says: for ur gf/bf? Roses on V-day, selling. PM me if you want some. i love W-INDSurfing says: yup.. help me can? earning some extra cash.. kaiqi* courage see me through, heart im trusting you. says: am spendin vday alone girl.. kaiqi* courage see me through, heart im trusting you. says: hmm.. fine. i will get it. Roses on V-day, selling. PM me if you want some. i love W-INDSurfing says: THANKS! a stalk? with wrapping? kaiqi* courage see me through, heart im trusting you. says: haha anyth will do.. im juz buyin it. ttz all. Roses on V-day, selling. PM me if you want some. i love W-INDSurfing says: oh.... ok. no probs! thank you! great.. now wd do i do with it?! rmbr back den in SC, i even had a list of who to give and who not to cuz i din had enough for all. and now... fine. the rubbish bin shall be the lucky one. ttz sad.
12 February 2006
- quiet ecstasy.
11 February 2006
orienteering. instead of going round and round in circles.. have u ever stop and wonder why u are lost?? ttz cuz u r running way too fast and u've alrdy missed ur last check point. slow down and back track. slow and steady wins the race. such contradiction. the complimentary, - the unknown. corrections. screw up, screwed up. oh wells.. i came across this when i was deleting away my old convos.. thinking curiousity aint tt bad after all. [ min ] baby u noe u got me got me says: aha i gotta admit i was interested, but interested out of curiousity [ min ] baby u noe u got me got me says: u were interesting. juz someone whom i nv met before. [ min ] baby u noe u got me got me says: my fault my fault for having responded [ min ] baby u noe u got me got me says: i responded only cos i was curious [ min ] baby u noe u got me got me says: and i was so glad tt when we walked across the road u pulled ur hand out of mine when i asked u to be mine surprised?? yup.. ttz my miracle matchmaker back den. back den when we were in this very unsettle state. [ min ] baby u noe u got me got me says: am so glad we din lose our friendship to anyth further den tt. im glad too. =) and im still in love with ur fav song -too serious too soon. itz always so applicable. hmm.. but at least u were interested.
06 February 2006
 i knew i shdnt have.. argh. this is killing me!! and i juz dun get it.. y cant u guys relax? omg.. its not tt serious plz. u r way too paranoid. y must u c things in such complicated ways?! it's tt simple. sheesh.. cant they understand my language?! wadz wrong with the whole fuckin world? everything seems to be MY fault! fine.. let it be. and guess im gonna get fuck by bloggin this too gosh.. gimme a break. i'm sorry if ttz wd u wana hear. juz fucking leave me alone! argh. i need some peace. am totally on the verge of breaking down. do me a favour will u? kill me.
05 February 2006
am like bloggin at pasir ris this is so lame... and i see bats flyin around me. LAUGHS. i think my parent's mad! they keep forcing me to go for this chalet thing with them. crazy la.. not that they duno.. i have like - a summative test to take - and a major project to hand up TOMORROW!! dad: awhile only k? me: NO! i dun wan! dad: fine.. den u settle ur own dinner.. u starve oso not my problem. and u go school urself tmr. how can they threaten their daughter lidat?? ahh....!! i have weird parents! dun they care if i fail my sem?! i have like FOUR warning letters and i juz got debar for - biz stats - biz accounting - macroecons - nmm great! i feel like im gonna get expelled from school any minute.. it will be a miracle if i can go on to yr2 safely and peacefully. and ttz like so freakin impossible.. cuz im alrdy under acad warning from last sem?! shessh.. to think tt i came from such studious sec school. hmm.. wd happen to me?? suddenly i lost all my confidence of passing my supp. ttz so unlike me. im well known for taking supp ever since last sem.. and i manage to pass well. so wdz the problem now?? sigh. i shd juz stop thinkin and get down to my NMM project soon. help..!! i need a web expert like right now?!!! some random thoughts. argh! cbox juz sucks big time!! how do u define fate? The inevitable events predestined by this force? dun i have a choice? wld it be better if i follow suit? nvm. sighh. seems like i dun have much of a choice.. JACE's using her "do u love me" and "fine u dun talk to me" tactic again.. she wants to see these pics being uploaded in my blog the first thg she wakes up tmr morning.  getting ready...  and muacks! btw, ttz juz a dare. we are not PLs pls.. i repeat.. not PLs. hahaha... and now miracle matchmaker n i are like on this kissin issue apparently she did ask me for one b4. funny thing is i din give it to her?? hmm.. wd was i thinkin? haha oh wells, i was happily bloggin and this bunch of guys came in video conferencing me they are killin me la! a bunch of lame ass. its 520am in the morning.. and they are screamin n shouting into my comp! ahhh..! omg disturbance! haha..
04 February 2006
omg! its a saturday night wd am i doing rotting at home!? im so suppose to be at zouk now. argh. shessh..! NMM is killing me! im so giving up! JACE dearie said she wana meet me.. but she din even call back =( bet she's like drown in her bed or somthing! haha.. i miss u jace. n u too da bian tai.. ! where o where are u?? haha and i feel so lame havin to help my fren to think of her msn replies. ttz damn funny! y do i get cramps?? ttz sad. =( cramps cramps go away.. come again another day.
03 February 2006
after skippin all my grp presentation last sem.. finally i promise to go for the one today. haha im juz findin excuses to spend actually. but shoppin ytd was hectic! i needed a shirt, pants and heels. and jacq wanted a pair of pointy too.. we had so much to shop yet so lil time. anyways.. i did manage to get my formals so i went as promised. here's my grp members =)  u r the reason why i came. squash-ed. damn. im so wear out from squash ytd. SUPPOSEDLY our squash session was from 10 to 11, but thanks to our dear sockiee.. she's so addicted to squash now! so we had another round after biz stats from 2 to 4. omg can u imagine.. 3hrs of squash!? sheessh even trainings back at sec sch wasnt tt long!! i see my dooms day coming!! i can imagine her draggin me to court every week torturin me to play with her. ahhh....!! me and my stoopid idea of squash session! haha okie im juz kiddin.. i'd be glad to play with u. =) so as long u stop hitting my squash balls over to the other court or to the sports hall! haha.. AND stop askin me to pick up the balls! ahh!  sockiee thinks she damn pro. haha but she look as though she's gonna start playing PING PONG! LAUGHS.  how un-professional..  un-glam!!!  aftermath. but seriously, think im gonna get asthma soon juz by playin squash with sockie. alrdy i dun have much time trying to catch my breath, by receiving her "attack" of ALL directions. and i mean ALL sorts. plus.. she kept on posing those stoopid actions! how can i stop to breath properly when she's CONSTANTLY distracting me with her poses! comical!! hey but thanks to squash i was early for biz stats for the first time.. dun understand y i can wake up so damn early juz for squash but not for tutorials or lectures. hmm.. *wonders* oh! and i juz remembered smth! after sendin jacq to her cds class.. saw her at the super long corridor! omg. awkward. ahhh!! i was super un-glam! sheessh..
02 February 2006
omg! swear she scare the hell outta me ytd. as i was walkin back to biz park after helpin sockie to check out on LT23 for *ahem*.. Jacq: Kaiqi! straight, left, down! Kai: Huh? Wad? Where? down?? Jacq: argh. nvm. (pulls my left arm) Jacq: quick sit! (am still freakin lost. who the hell does she wants me to see?! T09? idiot?) Jacq: left, down!! (den some1 walked pass..) Kai: FUCK FUCK FUCK!! Kai: ok.. sock the article reports the analysis of................. haha sock said my reaction to the situtation was hilarious! if only its been tape recorded. anyway, unintentionally.. the 3 of us went to 3 diff towns in 3 hours! queensTOWN, chinaTOWN and TOWN. afterwhich i decided to have my FIRST visit to parkway parade! and guess wd?! i ended up takin the longest bus ride ever in my whole entire life! gosh!! we took like 1hr15min?! but the minced meat noodle was worth the ride. *slurp* yummy yum yum!
01 February 2006
did i mention how much i hate map reading?? was lookin through the street directory for the whole of 45minutes! and i still cldnt figure my way to The Substation - Timbre. shessh y din i thought of takin a cab?! its so much easier. juz love makin things difficult for myself, dun i? so dumb. oh well.. timbre was great! duh... wad can i say?! its my bestie performin on stage!! omg!! she's damn pro!! singapore idol?? nah... she's way better den tt!! love u bestie!! =) *here's the duet with dominic* cool! |
Keagan
 An average guitar playing guy, with dreams and aspirations. one that like things simple and keep things that way. |
